Absolute freedom is loneliness (Galatians 5:13)

"For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love ​serve one another." - Galatians 5:13

Today I was talking with my wife about the next kid on the way and how big of a change it will be from one to two. We have lots of friends who have recently had a second child and the change from one kid to two is visibly astronomical. Apparently when you have one kid you can still sort of live like you don't have kids, but when number two comes along your life is pretty much over until they're old enough to take care of themselves at least a little bit (even longer if you go for 3 or 11).

Sometimes I think about how much more free I felt in college. I have this distinct memory of feeling like I didn't need to go home, it didn't matter when I went home, and no one would know if I decided not to go home. I don't know what I thought of it at the time, though I sometimes do imagine it would be nice to just be free like that. But then I think about the sacrifice of freedom I've made to be married - where I'm basically always responsible for telling my wife when I'll be home. I can't drink as much as I want or just not come home. But man is it worth it.

We took a trip this week to another city about an hour away by plane (28+ hours by train because of the terrain) and on the flight back I had to change my daughters diaper in the airplane lavatory. She was exhausted and put up with it better than she normally does because she was too tired to complain about the hard surface. When I was done I picked her up and looked in the mirror in the bathroom at my daughters face and was overwhelmed with how much more of a blessing she is than a burden.

I think regularly about my freedom and what it means. I think about how it could be abused and how by being willing to tell my wife where I'm going - or even ask permission, I'm loving my wife. I think about how wonderful of a blessing my wife is and how wonderful of a blessing my daughter is. I know I have no idea how hard it will be to have another child, but I do know it will be worth it. Serving my children now is an unbelievable blessing no matter how they turn out.

Thank you Lord for your great freedom. Thank you for the freedom we have in your Son and the joy it brings. Thank you that you've given us the opportunity, the freedom, to marry whom we love and have children we cannot help but be overwhelmed by.