He is the Christ, the Son of the living God - time I start living like it (Matthew 16:15-16)

“He said to them, "But who do you say that I am?" Simon Peter replied, "You are the Christ, the Son of the living God.” - Matthew 16:15-16

I know that I could have this answer. In the same way I could take a test in High School or College and within a day have forgotten everything. At least, thats the way I live.

I'm just shocked that I can have this head knowledge and not live like it.

I don't want to be saying, "I'm not good enough, I'll never be enough," or even, "I don't spend enough time in the word." Because of what Jesus did, we are just downright saved, righteous, justified. The sanctified part is the process.

But as I look at my life recently, I don't live like someone who truly believes because I don't wake up and seek the Lord with my whole heart. If I really believed this, and REALLY believed it, then I would desire the Lord SO much more than I do. Why must I be so stinkin' incompetent.

The problem lies a lot in the fact that I have a new member in the family. When I first got married it took me about six months or so to get back into the groove of regular quiet times because it took me that long to realize that I cant be married and spend time in the word at night. I have to wake up early to make it happen. But now, the child wakes up REALLY early, and in order to have the house be quiet and be able to spend time with the Lord I have to wake up even earlier.

I have what it takes, and I want to do what it takes. I'm sick of treating Him like a friend who I don't really get along with... I want to seek Him out of an overflow and an understanding of the great pleasure it is spend time with the Christ, the Son of the living God.

In application of this, I'm going outside to get some time with the Lord. Hopefully when I finally return tomorrow (after almost 4 months away) my life will take on some regularity and I'll find a time where I can be alone with the Christ, the Son of the living God.