Paul was a badass (Romans 9:3)

"For I could wish that I myself were accursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my brothers, my kinsmen according to the flesh." - Romans 9:3

I'm reading a book about the Psalms of imprecation (revenge) and soon I want to share a number of curses which Paul used throughout the New Testament. I was quite fascinated to see them in this book side by side one after the other, it was a little overwhelming. But before I start to raise questions about some of the things Paul did I wanted to discuss the giant that Paul was.

Sometimes in my pride I start to think things like "I'm an awful lot like David, a man after God's own heart," or "Paul had a thorn in HIS flesh, I bet the worst of my sin is nothing compared to what Paul had, and I'm probably just as faithful and love the Lord just as much."

The truth is I could never pray this prayer. I cant fathom loving others enough to wish they could be saved in my place. I cannot fathom eternal damnation, even if it saves another's life. About as high as I can possibly imagine is laying down my life for another, but this is still selfish in the sense that I know where I'm going. Could you ever wish yourself accursed and cut off from Christ so someone else could be saved?

Paul was a badass. More than I think I can even aspire to be.