One drunk-minded, comfort loving, awkward evangelist, wondering about his ministry

"As for you, always be sober-minded, endure suffering, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry." - 2 Timothy 4:5

Sober-minded is the first struggle for me. I have to work out six days a week to keep even mildly sober-minded, and if I don't for just a few days I go a little nutty. I start freaking out over little things and getting carried away in my head, its pretty weird. Its almost like I'm chemically unbalanced without exercise, that or I'm addicted to endorphins.

I know for a fact that I poorly endure suffering. My favorite things in the world are soft carpet, big couches, and hot tubs, because they spell out comfort. My freezing cold floors and the lack of ever seeing a sun is often suffering enough for me, and frequently more than I can handle.

Next, doing the work of an evangelist is one of my favorite things in the whole world and also one of the most unnatural for me. I don't understand why either. I'm extremely outgoing and have zero problem striking up conversation or talking with people about the Lord, but when it comes to getting to the gospel I have yet to make it natural. I try, and I'm a firm believer that everyone should do evangelism because I find I really realize the weight of my salvation when I'm sharing with someone else.

Fulfilling my ministry is hard simply because it's hard to know what exactly you're called to. This blog is actually one of those things. I feel like I'm supposed to teach someday and so I'm using this as a medium to sort out the things I'm interested in teaching, and to keep up my writing.

Paul's challenge to Timothy was a big one. Could you have lived up?