My dog is dead.

There is this line in the man who knew too little, where Bill Murray
is asking how actors cry, "Do you say to yourself 'My dog is dead' and
then poke yourself in the eye?" he then proceeds to do so.

Well last week my dog died. Its the first dog I've ever had, he was a
cute little guy. A Shar Pei named Bear. He only lived 9 days. They say
this is common for foreigners in Asia, they all kill their first dog
because they aren't tuned into all the diseases that are common here,
so they don't take proper caution with their first dog. Bummer.

I cant believe how attached to a little puppy you can become in just 9
days. I miss him.

I cant help but look to the Lord and wonder what the plan was with
Bear. Was he always only supposed to live that long? Could I have done
something better? You knew he would die right? But then I imagine how
many of us lose the people they love. I cant fathom.

And God wants to redeem this. Man we're fallen.

Would you get another dog? Can you really replace this spot in your
heart? I cant imagine.