The loss of children (Isaiah 47:9)

"These two things shall come to you
in a moment, in one day;
the loss of children and widowhood
shall come upon you in full measure,
in spite of your many sorceries
and the great power of your enchantments." - Isaiah 47:9

This verse is spoken to one who is a lover of pleasures.

I took a week long trip away from the family (not by choice... for work, this sort of thing is never by choice) and I got home less than 48 hours ago. If you remember it wasn't but about 8 months ago that I had a little girl. My wife was excited to tell me after I landed that to our surprise we were pregnant again. But this morning we're seeing what is probably the first signs of a miscarriage.

It's odd for me to feel the loss of something I've not yet gotten used to having. It's harder for me to know I could have had a child when I have an idea of what he/she could have looked like (e.g. after the first one). I haven't begun to process this yet and I wonder about this verse.

Not that I'm seeing this as a punishment, in a lot of ways it might be more convenient for us to be able to wait a few more months like we may have planned, but that doesn't make it any easier to lose life.

God's will is God's will. Sometimes it's just hard to know how it lines up with ours.

(We don't know anything for sure, we're going to see the doctor tomorrow. Keep us in your prayers if you think of it)