My love of the world, will it ever stop? (James 4:4)

"You adulterous people! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God." - James 4:4

Again I've been dwelling on just how much of my time I spend daydreaming about things that might someday be. Those things are exorbitant amounts of money, and then when I start to feel guilty, it is of course followed by how I would generously give it away and be famous for being so generous.

Am I the only one who really genuinely is satisfied with what he has but still finds it difficult to not be drawn into how much BETTER it would be if (insert situation here). I just long so much to find satisfaction and meaning in the Lord but so frequently live like I'm failing miserably.

I love my life though. I love what I do. I'm incredibly thankful for my wife and daughter and cant believe I get paid to have the fun I have doing ministry. So why do I still absurdly dream of comfortable cars and expensive gin?

My prayer has to be begging God to desire the things he desires and no longer be so enticed by the things of this world. I do think myself someone who finds an awful lot of satisfaction in the Lord, so why does my flesh keep popping up?

Finally, I'm curious, do we ever desire the things of the Lord so much that we no longer value money? Fame? Making history? Or do we just dream of money in a different way. Hoping to do good with it (surely we'd fail right)?

I certainly don't want to be an enemy of the Lord. Lord change my heart.