When Jesus comes back, will you shrink from Him in shame? - On abiding (1 John 2:28)

"And now, little children, abide in him, so that when he appears we may have confidence and not shrink from him in shame at his coming." - 1 John 2:28

I feel like abiding is one of those Christian things we all know we're supposed to do but aren't really sure what it means. From the context of this verse in 1 John, I would almost assume it means that by not sinning we are abiding in Him. But that seems odd as we're also told in this passage that if we deny we have sin then we make God out to be a liar.

I suppose the paradox is answered in the gospel where we are sinful but washed of it by the blood of Jesus. Seems easy enough. And a good reason to have confidence when He comes.

To be confident when Jesus comes back would mean a pretty close relationship with the Lord. I've considered it, and I always figured the minute I see Jesus riding on the clouds I am very likely to freak out. I always imagine myself trying to repent of any sins I hadn't yet repented of while Jesus is flying in and the whole world is going silent as the spectacle.

Given my talent for freezing under pressure I can probably be sure I wouldn't be able to mumble a single word, let alone self examination and an whole prayer of confession. So if I believed the Lord could come back at any second then I imagine I would be slightly more motivated to be closely watching my relationship with Him so that I could be confident, not fearful. But this still isn't something I've wrapped my head around.

Jesus is coming back, and I know that. But I still just always think a lot of bad stuff would have to happen first, and I would know it was the end times right? I could worry about my relationship with the Lord then...

Alas, I ought to go repent of this right now...