All things rubbish to gain Christ (Phil 3:8)

"Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ" - Philippians 3:8

Here is another clear and simple proclamation of the gospel. All things are rubbish in the light of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus.

I once read something which suggested we all read the book of Philippians chapter 3 - 25 times in a row. It said it would change my life, and if it didn't it was because I hadn't read it 25 times. So I printed it out, sat down and read it through 25 times.

While I wouldn't say it changed my life, I did catch what Paul was going for quite a bit better than I had previously. This is the crucial verse. Everything in chapter 3 revolves around this verse. Paul counts everything as loss, everything as trash, to gain Christ.

It is so hard for me to give everything up for Christ. The truth is there are a lot of things I'm willing to give up. Home, comfort, even safety and health sometimes (though this last one is particularly hard for me), but giving up my computer? Internet? My wife? My child? There are things other people have sacrificed which I really don't know if I'd be able to.

Hudson Taylor's story has had a great impact on my life and ministry, and when I read about the two wives he lost, and the many children to disease and other things, I cannot fathom. My subconscious reminder to the Lord has become "Lord I'm willing to sacrifice, but only some things. You're good, but you're not that good."

I hate that this is where my mind goes, but I have a long ways to go to be a Paul, to count ALL things as rubbish. I desire the Lord with all my heart, er... most of my heart. I've still got some growing to do.

Thank you Lord that you are good, and loving, and caring. I want to be a hero for you, a soldier for you, willing to lay down everything for the surpassing worth of knowing you, but I don't know how. I like the gifts you've given me, I like them a lot. Help me to know your worth, and to follow you through thick and thin. If you truly are of surpassing worth, I want to truly believe it. I think Mark 9:24 should become a life verse for me "I believe; help my unbelief!"